many times

We Belong / Pat Benatar

yesterday i started step one of many steps required to legally change one's name.  i'm not going to lie, the... feminist? liberal? woman?... inside of me died a little inside all the way through it.  i mean, look, i've had this name my whole life, we're friends, we know each other, and more importantly: it's a GREAT name!  Sarah!  Elizabeth! Formosa!

It's a perfect name!  And no need to go ruining it with hyphens thank-you-very-much.  I've been stewing about what i should do with my name since before we got engaged but always seemed to walk away with the notion that I didn't need to worry about it yet so why grow MORE gray hairs over it.

and then it came up that i needed to renew my license so I finally had to make the decision to go through with it now or potentially never (i'm a grade A procrastinator).  so i buckled down and took the first step which was researching the crap out of how to do it using the interwebs.  i gathered all the documents i needed and headed out to BFE to wait in the shortest government department line i've been in (aside from when we got the marriage license) to meet my new friend: my license liaison if you will.  who just so happened to have the EXACT same birthday as me.  what are the odds???  and just a heads up, don't ask that around my father... HE WILL TELL YOU WHAT THOSE ODDS ARE.

i had already been thinking that I would have two middle names: my given one and my maiden name but it was hard to convey this information on the form i had been given.  and i kept waiting patiently for my license liaison to ask me about my name but the moment never seemed to arrive.  she checked all the paperwork, scanned it, stamped it, signed it, had me sign it, i paid for it, we did the small talk dance and then... she printed out my paperwork with my new name... minus my maiden name.

just incase you aren't aware: i'm always worried my food will get spit in if i complain.  but i took my big girl pill that morning so i took a deep breath, smiled, and asked my new best friend how i could incorporate my old last name in to my new name.  she smiled at me, as if we were conspiring, leaned in and said, "Oh honey, I kept my maiden name as part of my new name too!"  I told her my plan of having two middle names and she said, "No, no, you are just as fabulous as me and what YOU need is two first names."

For some reason, I kind of fell in love with that idea:  yesterday I was Sarah and today I'm Sarah Elizabeth.

I walked out of the DMV that morning with another awesome DL photo (two in a row, a personal best) and my brand new name, which at that point was starting to feel like new school supplies, new backpack, new jeans AND new shoes all rolled into one.

in my eyes

Penny Lane / The Beatles

Every weekend I have a list of projects intermingled with the regular chores to do around the condo compiled from a week or 17 of procrastinating. Between work, the gym, making meals on my nights, the laundry that I swear TRIPLED when we started living together, the regular chores around our condo, I feel like all of the free time I used to have evaporated despite the fact that aiden splits all of the household responsibilities with me.

All week long I imagine the weekend projects that are one in many steps that bring me to that one blissful day in the not so far off future where all of the rooms in our condo are painted, the furniture is functional and placed perfectly, everything is organized, those hideous vertical blinds have been hauled off to the trash, and the only thing that is left is for me to open a bottle of wine and finish watching all those Clean House episodes on our DVR queue.

Oh, go ahead and laugh at me, I’ll wait.

I know that home ownership is a NEVER ENDING project because I’m not a complete fool. But I can’t seem to shake the hope that at some point the condo will – through all of these projects – match up with the perfect home in my mind. And in that imaginary place all the furniture and décor I want are free… I’m working on that reality and the patience that comes with it.

It is just that... some Saturdays I wake up early full of energy ready to tackle all of the items on the list. I make incredible headway and spend the remainder of the weekend patting myself on the back and taking it all in. I get 90% of my weekend project AND chore list done and then I spend a week basking in the glow of my greatness and how far ahead I will be when the next weekend comes around.

And then the next weekend, and sometimes two or three weekends that follow I can’t start one project to save my life. Sure, I check off all the small things – the regular chores, the trips to the gym AND the workout videos, grocery shopping and even taking a shower and looking glamorous for date night. But pick out paint? Order photos? Buy picture frames? Plan a housewarming party? Move that free dresser that just needs to be sanded and painted? Who do I think I am… Martha Stewart?

NO, those weekends the only thing I can handle on my big picture project list is the bottle of wine and the DVR queue of Clean House.

Which is why I’ve decided that I need a personal trainer… except for House Projects. Does such a person exist? Like a drill sergeant crossed with a… a mom. Oh right, dammit – this means I have to call my mom, doesn’t it?

Screw it, where's that wine???

marmalade forrest

Albi The Racist Dragon / Flight of the Conchords

on Friday night Chad and I decided to drive up to Park City to see if we could check out some of the meteor shower that had been going on.  Of course, first we had to stop at the GAP outlet to see if there was anything for me us to buy and then we had to get some chocolate from the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory to snack on while we were watching the shooting star show.  By the time we settled onto the marble benches to stare up at the sky we had pretty much spent 2 hours rehashing everything that had happened that week and decided that neither of us wanted to talk about our jobs anymore.

Silence.  And then...

Me: Do you think they make a TomTom voice with Jemaine?

Chad: If they don't, they should.

Me: But not just Jemaine, specifically Jemaine from the Albi show.

Chad: Turn left at the very scary, very dark cave.

Me: Turn right... laughed the boy.

Chad: You have arrived at your destination, which we all know, turns to jellybeans!

Me: Your destination, well, it isn't racist... anymore.

Chad: I don't think we're making any sense at all.

Me: Noooo Albi, we're just very badly burned.  And we're different.

And this is why things will just never get boring with the two of us.

Kitchen: Stage 1

The kitchen was pretty well put together when we moved in and by extension of the dining room it was an easy choice to paint the walls the same color.

Before (sorry for the crappy photo):

After:

The only real complaint I have about this kitchen is the lack of space... of course it probably wouldn't hurt me to pare down some cooking utensils. It also keeps me from stocking up on food I won't ever eat :)